 Nurul Fatin Roslan Muhammad Nur Adli's <3
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Posted on: September 25, 2008 Posted at: 2:48:00 PM Didnt feel like going to school & so yeah, the reason why im here blogging.
Buuuuuuttt,,,,,, i end up cleaning the cabinets in the kitchen when i woke up. **beeeessst pe. toinkS** --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I've ignored, & am still ignoring. Not because they all told me to. But because I know those things you've said about me is untrue. I did not gossip, say bad stuffs, bitch, start any falsehood about you or even did anything to you . I know myself best & you know yourself great. Lets get this straight. This is for you Siti Syahirah Bte Ameer. I know you've been waiting for me to "reply" to your posts & expecting me to say things out here in the blog. But no, thats not me. I'd rather have us meeting up & talk. I dont find it good to say things out here in the blog because I might end up being laughed at & I do not wish to let others talk about it, about us and again,, laughed at it. My blog is a happy blog. However, I don't like it when people think and assume. I rather have them to learn the truth. And,, I dont get it. How come you never mentioned my name even once in the posts when we all know its about me? How come its "eu-know-who-you-are"? How come all these while you never come confront me & talk it out? How come you like to think that I always talk about you? How come you never asked? HOW COME & WHY? I respected you as a schoolmate, classmate, chairperson & a drama member. & I still respect you now. We worked together for the perfomance 2 years ago & you are one great actor & I've still got to learn more to be up to your level. You made a great dragon. Never once do I have this feeling of 'dengki' you stated in your posts. I read your posts, re-read it, read it again & even print it out. I try to figure out if there is any part mentioned about the wrong doings that I've done towards you. Tell you something, I cant. All I read is about how you think I keep talking behind your back to everyone that I know of. "..she would know not to be talking about me LIKE THAT to everyone she knows.." Like HOW? & how you know. Who told you? Till today, Im still questioning how come you dislike me? How come theres always detest when someone mentioned my name to you? Can you please tell me what wrong have I done? I hate guessing game. Dont worry, I will in fact be more pleased if you tell me the reasons. I want to know them. So that I wont repeat them again. & "..you'll know im not all that SHE said, right Amal Asyraf Rozali.."--can you also include this part? I asked Amal about it, & he had no idea. I dont blame him. Maybe he's got short term memory for all I know( heees. sorry amal). Maybe,,you remember better. I wonder wonder wonder what have I said about you. Come, lets meet please. I'll let you shout & talk upside-down about me. I dont care. I'll just listen. I'll sit & you stand so you can look down upon me (though im shorter than you). Its ok. I just want to know my wrong doings so I wont repeat them. Gimme a ring about it. & oh! I just cant accept ONE PARTICULAR thing babe. Please know that I wear scarf/tudung NOT BECAUSE I WAS TOLD TO. I wasnt forced to. I choose to--full-heartedly. Its my own will. Its for my own good. Its because of our god, Allah. I dont want him to later asked my parents why they havnt taught me well about Islam. My parents have taught me & siblings about it well enough. I do not have a false heart & pretend Im a goody-goody ass than everyone else just because I wear tudung & they dont. I dont label. & yes, we were never taught to hate. I dont hate you Syahirah. I never did. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  Anyway,, thanks boyfriend for hearing me out, listen to me ramble ramble ramble crap & go *doinks* over it. I love you love. Thank you iten too. ILYT! Im sorry you two had to listen to such a state on the phone. haha. I sound so teruk right. Dont tell people tau. ahaha.Thank you ej for the msg. I love eu kakak J. Thank you fitzy for playing water with me. ahaha. Like budak kecik please kite due. SAYANG YOU! But it helps me to feeeeeeel much much better sia just runnig shouting. haha. I've yet to upload those pics dear. wooots. & also, thank you the rest for making feel better. Dont worry. I think I can handle it. It just takes time. Its 26th tomorrow. I looooook forward to it! I cant wait.! weeeeeeees~. I miss miss miss miss miss miss boyfriend sia. Grr~. eheeeees. |
